I saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness,
starving hysterical naked,
who lost glorious sunday saturday afternoons evenings buried in 19th century texts font 8 courier,
reproducing it on blinding monitor screens amongst the other diary entries and scandalous pages losing focus falling asleep dripping full o' acid morphine caffeine while simultaneously obsessing over granny smith apple pies and chocolate raspberry pies costing 6 dollars apiece and diff girls with soccer player names...



sebastien

There is a chinese saying that goes: When a man woos a woman, a mountain stands between them; When a woman woos a man, a thin veil's all thats inbetween.


so

in the student lounge on tuesday night, we never expected we'd last this long.

it's been raining nonstop these few days. the mornings always begin deceptively sunny, and the rain always chooses the most inopportune times to come down. like when you're on the way there and back, but not in. i feel drenched all the way to my bones. the sun is out but it's still raining. maybe later there'll be a rainbow.

here is some KTV fodder to get you all in the mood for tonight
i felt, growing within me, perhaps for the first time, a nauseating sensation of emptiness: so this was what it meant to be different: this was the price for being the salt of the earth. to carry on your crossbar a girl you desire and be so far from her as not to be able even to fall in love with her: carry her on your crossbar along viale gorizia to help her belong to someone else, and vanish from my life.
(primo levi,the periodic table: phosphorus)

-lovelybones

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
How clearly I first saw you smilin’ in the sun
Wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one

I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so tired but I can’t sleep
Standin’ on the edge of something much too deep
It’s funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
We are screaming inside, but we can’t be heard

But I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

I’m so afraid to love you, but more afraid to loose
Clinging to a past that doesn’t let me choose
Once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
You gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories

And I will remember you
Will you remember me?
Don’t let your life pass you by
Weep not for the memories
Weep not for the memories

"We don't read and write poetry because it's cute. We read and write poetry because we are members of the human race. And the human race is filled with passion. And medicine, law, business, engineering, these are noble pursuits and necessary to sustain life. But poetry, beauty, romance, love, these are what we stay alive for."

~ Dead Poets' Society

green&orange.

Disregard your friends.

When life breaks apart
and death breaks in.

Conjure a philosophy
It's the only thing you have to call your own
In the end nothing follows you.

The future breeds uncertainty
but history never lies,
yet mistakes are to be repeated
chronicles have divulged.

Spare no remorse;
no one cries with you.
As your tears turn the sand a darker shade of red,
the world moves on;
there is no reccess.

know thine enemy:
spare no clemency.
take thought of the morrow,
you might find an end to your sorrow.
the green green lucious grass.
give me a coup de grâce.


so please mother sue me.

hey guys whazzup!!!!!!!!

i'm like, totally emo man.

i love to eat sunflower cupcakes with poppy seeds while listening to acoustic travis hahaha.

clvgman J.

David and Goliath spree closing this friday! pls tell me or ben liew your orders

~

HEART2HEART - THE ANSWER

When you thought I wasn't brave enough to walk beside you
I was behind you every step of the way
Still filled with awe because of the beauty that stands
before me



When you thought I was too deaf to hear your heartbeat
I didn't want to assume anything
And I was afraid to lose our friendship



When you thought I wasn't there to catch you
It was because you never gave me the chance
You never reached the bottom, you've already grabbed a branch



If you feel like you are nowhere, I too am lost
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we just going to turn around,
Or are we gonna cross each other's path, again?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound?



Don't let me walk alone
I want to walk by your side
Don't let me talk to someone else
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for someone else
Its you I want to fall in love with.

You and noone else.

~LovingYearningHurting~

X:
When you were here before
I couldn't look you in the eyes
You wouldn't know...
but I see you everyday
In the same room
x tables away

Always resplendent stunning basking in the glory of your Beauty
moving gracefully amongst the crowd
Like a bubble
A bubble on a sea of noise
quiet and small and clean and bright

I wish i was special


Y:
When I first came
They said that nothing is constant
that everything changes
that the only constant is change

n I doubted them
I believed in you
Believed that you will not change
Believed that we will be forever special
that we are above them all
that we will inherit this place

but i was wrong
you said, "We don't fit each other."
Now
I'm alone when I walk thru the Gardens
when I queue up for lunch
when i fall asleep on the table

I'm all alone.


X:
Somtimes i wish they'd do away with all the uncertainty and the fuzziness
Who set the rules to the game?
Rules that I don't want to follow

I am not a player.


sebastien

One late autumn night, a disciple awoke crying.
So the master asked the disciple, "Did you have a nightmare?"
"No."
"Did you have a sad dream?"
"No," said the disciple.
"I had a sweet dream."
"Then why are you crying so sadly?"
The disciple wiped his tears away and quietly answered,
"Because the dream I had can't come true."

-club emo

A ghost in a world of sorrow
like a lost dragonfly
you do not know what you seek
yet you try so hard
where will you end up?

so sue me.

HEART2HEART



If you see me walking the road with someone else
It's not because I like his company
Its because you're not brave enough to walk beside me.



If you hear me talking about him all the time
Its not because he pleases me
Its because you're too deaf to hear my heartbeat



If you feel me falling with someone new
Its not because I love him
Because you're not there to catch me fall



If you feel lost, I too am nowhere
I too don't know where the road is going
Are we gonna cross each other's path
Or just completely turn around?
Will we just let go of what we had
Or go to the place where love is bound



Don't let me walk with him
It's you I want to walk with
Don't let me talk of him
It's you I want to talk with
Don't let me fall for him
It's you I want to fall in love with.



~LovingYearningHurting~

anyone interested in starting dance at btc? any ideas? hiphop funk lyrical latin? know how to get instructors? it's really boring.

-funnyfriend

anyone interested in starting dance at btc? any ideas? hiphop funk lyrical latin? know how to get instructors? it's really boring.

-funnyfriend

monday is brokeback day.

~ & cleavageman J

we're all alone, really.

-funnyfriend

spree for david and goliath!

http://www.davidandgoliathtees.com/

shipping cost is S$9.99 + S$6.99/kg up til 10kg, i.e. shipping for 1kg (volumetric or actual weight, whichever is higher) is S$16.98 by vpost.

pls let Ben Liew or myself know

tees on special are US$16 each. exchange rate is the credit card one, i.e. higher than actual rates.


~ ~ ~ ~ ~


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pls let me know if interested~

Lost my handphone. Today is gonna be a bad day. Feel it in my bones.

the reasonable woman: kanneth is being unreasonably moody. he is horrible and mean and wont let me use his laptop. furthermore, he is taking out his moodiness on me by giving me these scary squinty frowns. it makes me feel like a little black squid in salt water.

-depressed lawyer

if i say i love you, you better believe it before i change my mind

apologies, i think, are overrated. i imagine one day that if people say sorry too many times it will lose its meaning. just like the word nice, the word honourable, the word honest - just like the word fine. i’m fine. funny how one word loses its meaning so easily, just by repeating it. and then some.

things change so quickly. there are many things that i, would like to say to you, but i don’t know how; funny how things can pass between strangers and some others just remain across a road nobody dares to cross. it’s a bit like clothes, really - there are some you buy and wear into the next three weeks or so, and then there are those where the only time you put them on is in the fitting room. girls should know; every girl must have at least one. not everyone is like faded jeans where you just love them more with age. some people come and some people go, in the end the ones who stay aren’t always the ones who actually matter, just like the big fish that got away. you know as well as i do that the length of time you know somebody has zero bearing on how well you know a person.

what does it mean to lose yourself in a crowd of people? to be someone, to become someone, to turn into somebody else, to forget you actually ever existed. life becomes a movie, a timeline, a history book, where there is always a Before and an After. pre-war, post-war, circa 1870, pre-secession, post-independence, post-breaking up, post-love, post-you. before you, after you, when you were here. it’s so easy to categorise love, put people into boxes, cart them away in memories as if they never existed, real people become vague outlines, first loves are forgotten. lovers become friends, and friends disappear. anyone who has ever been in love knows that pain, somewhat acute, somehow dull, somehow always there - when people you have shared your life with suddenly become people you call for a movie, a coffee, a drink, a play. people you know as letters on a screen or faces in a photograph. are you who you are? are you what you say you are, are you the things you like, the things you do, the people you see, the person you love? are you the person you love? are you his fancies, his moods, his whims, his laughter, his smile, his sorrow? are you his nemesis, are you your nemesis, are you his enemy, are you his friend, is he your friend, is he for real, are you him, or is he you? and does everyone else really not matter in the process?

are you looking for a lover, or a fan?
are you looking for a lover, or a sign?
are you looking for a lover or is it really worth the bother?
is it really worth the bother to be mine?

-lovelybones